Day 25: My Biggest Regret (Day 25 of 30 Day Blogging Challenge)

My Michael and I first married back in May of 2006, but we ended up getting divorced and going our separate ways. I dated other men, married and had a baby with one, and that marriage turned into a nightmare situation for my children and me. I then met back up with Michael while divorcing the other guy, and Michael and I remarried in December of 2013. My biggest regret in my life is Michael and I divorcing the first time around. I wish we both would have fought harder to see our marriage through.

I was emotionally and spiritually abused by the other man I married and his family. After we separated, he showed up at my new house with his brother, and they attacked me and took my 9-month old baby from my arms and took off with her. The police had to be called for me to get her back, and she had to go to the hospital to get her bruises checked out. The police pressed charges against him, and he ended up pleading guilty to interfering with custody. After this part of the nightmare begun, my then 4-year old daughter tole me my estranged husband, her step father, used to sexually abuse her. Part of me died that day.

If Michael and I would have stayed together, I would have had my second daughter with him. The attack and attempted kidnapping never would have happened. The sexual abuse never would have happened. The PTSD and nightmares never would have happened.

My biggest regret is not fighting harder to keep my marriage with Michael in tact the first time around. I won’t make that mistake again.